I've seen some things on here lately, mostly guys asking how to find a hotwife to cuck them, and it got me thinking.

I've known I am cuck, since long before I knew the term or what a cuckold is. From my first serious high school girlfriend, to my current wife (2nd wife) I've steered the relationships towards cuckolding.

But, there was an occasion that I could have dove head first into a total cuckold relationship and chose not to because I didn't have any emotional connection with the woman.

The background: A friend of mine had a female friend and sometime FWB (Kristen) who started hanging out with us. At some point it came up that at the time I was the go to camera man for a couple who were attempting to start an x-rated website featuring his wife. Kristen was very intrigued and asked tons of tons of questions.

Then my friend got himself a girlfriend that didn't like Kristen, so she started hanging out with me. Kristen was pretty good looking, pretty face, nice body! I kind of thought she was flirting with me and dropping hints about dating, but even though I thought she was pretty sexy, I just didn't feel that spark with her.

So, one day she calls me and asks if I'm busy. I tell her no and she says she met this guy at a party and he's into making porn and she wants me to film them. Ok, sure! They come over and we have a couple drinks and then for the next hour they got at it. He's pretty well hung and she seemed pretty into his cock. They hit all the major positions and he probably lasted close to 25 minutes. Finally he says he's going to cum and I tell him to cum on her tits. He ends up spraying all over her chest, neck and face.

Kristen then goes to shower his cum off and I try to make small talk and eventually ask how they met, and he says he saw her ad on craigslist looking for a guy to help her make a porn. HUH??? didn't meet him at a party. weird! They get cleaned up and I give her the memory cards, which she says she doesn't have a way to watch them, so I agree to port the video over to Blu-ray and they leave. I never did get around to transferring the file or even watching it.

Then a couple days later she shows up with some booze for cocktails and after a bit she finally comes out and asks me. "What do I have to do to get you to ask me out?" I was a little surprised and said, "I didn't think you'd want me to."

She says, "why do you think I brought that guy over? I know you like to watch, and I remember from high school, Teresa told everyone that you have a little dick!"

I was way caught off guard and had no idea what to say! Finally after a couple minutes of silence, she tells me that if we were dating I could watch her all the time! She be happy to fuck other guys to turn me on.

Ummmmm. Ok. Well, here's the deal, I had no feelings for her and because of that, I really didn't find her offer sexy at all. I finally, lied and said I had met a lady online recently and really liked her and wanted to see where it went.

So, I could have watched her fuck a lot of guys on a regular basis, but wasn't remotely turned on by it. But when my current wife was cucking me with her FWB, I was never allowed to watch and it was the greatest experience of my life!

I would assume most cucks are like this, but would love to hear your take on how important true love is to you?