Title mostly says it all, my gf and I have talked about my fantasy for years and we’ve gone so far as her meeting up with someone for drinks but for whatever reason I can’t mentally get comfortable diving in for the first time experience. Does anyone have recollections of “ripping the bandaid off” and any tips from their journey on deciding if they were ready to fully commit with going through on the journey?

It’s tough for me to put my reservations into words because there isn’t a specific “item” that makes me uneasy, I think it’s more so the fact that you can’t put the toothpaste back in the bottle and if I decide it’s not what I want halfway through, it may be too late. This may be based on prior experiences where I haven’t been there and she’s gone dark and while nothing more happened , maybe it’s that loss of control that scarred me?

Open to any thoughts anyone in this community has. Thanks