I guess I always had issues of never feeling masculine enough but lately I reached an almost comfortable balance. Sometimes I get some self loathing, like I always think its interesting how in some of the amateur videos it's like normal guys who look like they are regular working class guys, probably presenting as masculine at work, in public to family etc. How do they square it up with being a cuck? or some of the straight up bisexual aspects of the fetish. Like how do they seem themselves? I really wish I knew so I would have some idea. At first I did not like cuck stuff, but the more I got older and the more porn I saw I had a more open mind to it. I don't like the humiliation stuff but I do like the aspects of getting pleasure from her pleasure but also sorta being submissive but I see it conflicting with me trying to be more assertive and aggressive in other aspects of my life. Or maybe I am overthinking it?