I've loved femdom and cuckold porn since my teen years (33 now). A few years ago, I had an open relationship, which in practice was more of a cuckolding thing (we've never talked in these terms but that was it). Even though she wouldn't see other guys very frequently, I got really anxious when she did. It was not just about jealousy, but feeling like I was inferior, because I wasn't getting laid with other girls.

Today, I get very horny when I think about these stories and fantasize a lot with these memories. It's like I see my past as cuckold porn...

But when I thought of bringing cuckolding to my last relationships, I felt very uneasy. The same feeling of being left out, of being in an inferior position remained. But it's exactly this power play that makes cuckolding so hot!

Has anyone felt like that? Did you try to explore further the lifestyle or just left to porn?