I never judge the sexual desires of others; we desire what we desire, right? But not everything makes me comfortable and I’ve never been completely comfortable reading posts that have to do with family, especially parents: step dads, parents who are into the lifestyle, sharing bulls with parents, etc.

But reading those posts triggered a memory about my own mom. I realized that she may be partly responsible for my fetishes. I remember now that when I was a 13 or 14 year old adolescent, just post puberty, my mom saw me naked (nudity was OK and normal in my family). She commented on my small penis and said that she hoped that I would grow a big penis soon— like my dad I suppose. I told her that I was done growing and she expressed obvious disappointment (username checks out). I was ashamed and humiliated; I remember that clearly enough. It is clear to me now that she probably liked big cocks and I think my dad was pretty big.

I figure our sexualities are equal parts predetermined genetic makeup and our environment, especially early childhood and adolescent experiences. My small cock was genetically predetermined, obviously, and I might have been a submissive cuckold anyway, but I think my fetish for humiliation, jealousy and compersion may stem partly from the humiliation I experienced at 14. Anyway, today I love my small penis and so does my wife. She knows she can have more whenever she wants it and I’m her happy cuckold. So my minor childhood trauma does have a happy ending.