My wife was all for experiencing the lifestyle with me her main focus was finding a guy who was hung and experiencing a real life big dick instead of me using dildos or wearing a penis sleeve. She even said that if i had a naturally big dick that she would still want to have the freedom to fuck other guys and enjoy the excitement of it and still have this in our relationship, but that the focus would be more based on the flirting and new sexual experiences and not so much on the hope of the guy having a huge dick as if i was hung and she met a guy who wasnt that big she would be a little disappointed but not as bothered as shed still have my big dick at home. But because my dick is small her main focus is finding a guy with a much larger cock than me. Recently she sat me down and said she doesn’t not want it anymore and thinks she was just wanting it for herself when we had a rocky phase in our relationship and she thinks that now that we are good she would never want to risk what we have and would only go with another guy if we were completely finished. It was strange as her saying this was gutting and hard to hear as i want it so much but in the same breath nice as she literally could fuck who she wants but is choosing not to. I still want to bring it up again but think i should wait a while