Looking for some advice. My fiancée (23F) and I (27M) have been together for about 4 years. The first 3 years we were long distance. I told her my fantasies of seeing her with other (bigger) men than me within the first year and she was understanding, but not necessarily into it. We roleplayed and she would find her grove and have fun with it. We had two small experiences with others while long distance but nothing super exciting. She gave head to one guy and slept with another but nothing to write about.

Well now that we’re not long distance we’ve continued to explore the lifestyle. We found her a bull who’s she’s seen twice now. He’s about 9 inches. The first time they fucked for two hours trying different positions and in between she would suck on him to keep him hard (she never sucks on me once I’ve fucked her). He made her cum 5 times and she had a lot of fun teasing me throughout the following weeks about how she cucked me and how good he was. We met up with him again for my birthday. They didn’t last two hours but he still made her cum a lot. I saw her in a lot of different positions then the first time as I was at the end of the bed watching. She had a lot of fun teasing me and holding my hand while he railed her. She got a little worked out and needed a break and practiced deep throating him. She basically trained herself in two sessions how to deep throat her 9 inch bull. After he left I gave her a big kiss and she was explaining to me how she consciously opened her throat for him. It was so hot to hear how she trained herself like that.

She seems to enjoy her play dates with her first consistent bull, but a lot of the times I bring it up she seems uninterested in talking or roleplaying. I do daydream about it a lot, and am conscious in not bringing it up too much, but lately I’ve been trying to pick when to initiate conversation about it but she doesn’t seem interested. She did mention that last time after they played she was a bit sore from how big he was. Curious what my strategy should be going forward now that we’ve taken the plunge into the lifestyle. Should I let her initiate when she is ready to see him or role play? Do I need to be more direct in requesting sessions or will that only make her less into it?