I’m not sure if it’s unique or not but I love my gf going out and solo playing more so than watching in person.

In particular her just going out to a club and having a one night stand in a hotel gets me going so much more than the experience of watching each and every part. I think part of this is due to embarrassment of having someone see me in that position alongside just general anxiety due to not having been around many naked guys.

Solo play (especially when it’s spontaneous) just allows my imagination to go wild and go through so many emotions waiting for the odd update or picture to make me spiral even further.

However, after speaking to her about this she wants to try to keep me involved as it turns her on more me being there and keeps things more intimate between us.

Anyone else had similar thoughts or feelings on this?