Hey

I have very peculiar way into coming to this world ( cheating , and ultimately to cucking) I used to be a guy who is completely immersed in literature world , lived in imaginary places through classic novels , with extensive reading/knowledge about science & literature , it kept my world in High-imaginary levels, it deviated me from hassling in the real world by myself, instead I used other people experience to feel different emotions and consequences,

This later translate to me being always in the shadows, no authentic relationship when it comes to the most intimate part of our psyche which is emotional/sexual relationships,

I was fine , I didn’t really care about sex/intimacy , I channeled those desires by my own , either by my imagination, or ejaculation if extreme , and go back to my world of reading , academia, literature,

On the sideline, I really loved watching classic Tv shows, and movies , I was really geek when it comes to movies , cinematography, director styles of presenting their movies, different genre , and so on ,

Also I was captivated by classic Tv sitcoms ( especially Seinfeld, the office).

Anyhow , I always thought of sex IN COTEXT, thus the porn never caught my attention, I always thought that sexual intercourse as the end product of intimacy, and intimacy without build up, always was unappealing to me ,

So the sub-plot that occurs in movies which involves intimacy always was such a turn on for me , and this is aggravating each time I encounter such subplot , I then kept searching for such movies /novels with this themes , and each time I saw something or read something , I wanted more , it exhausts all my passions about other things and directed to this ever-intensifying intimate desires about (SEX IN CONTEXT)

Then there are some movies and Tv shows that really really pulled me to this world ( it was very good designed movies& Tv shows with great characters, great storylines) “ I’m not gonna mention them in this post for personal reasons , but yes , it is not of the famous ones that it always mentioned here when it comes to depicting cuckoldry in the movies& tv shows , so it is not generic for sure , some of those , I never saw it in any lists dedicated to movies & Tv series of such kind, so it is really subtle, but it is depicted very well, ( this is a feature that you can’t find if your are not a movies & Tv series nerd 😌)

I was drawn to that from those snippet of movies , and it always kept aggregating every time like a snowball, till I found some really really really good couples ( that I think they depicted cuckoldry at its most intimate, extreme end , yet elegant and very well presented either in context, or in their films ). Hint: They were very famous at some point of time before leaving the web, making their their places a void and no other couple come close to them , because there were very genuine, immersive in this lifestyle , and they didn’t do it for ulterior motive or as just a sideline playing, they were in my opinions the epitome of this lifestyle ( really taking this as real lifestyle and dissections even the small hints , gestures that kept them on a really different levels from any other couples in this lifestyle). Some of those who were following this lifestyle online for a while , may know who are they 😉

Since that I always kept in this loop , always want to get pass that , but i always fail and keep coming up to this , I really wanted to change this , and reignite my passions about other things , but this fantasy and the timeline that got me there crippled me apparently

Thanks for those who read it fully,