To preface this, earlier on before I got married to my wife, I told her about my cuckolding fantasies and she seemed to have an open mind to it, at least certainly from a fantasy perspective. I was more open then because the relationship was young and I didn't have a lot of feelings invested yet. A few months after that the idea of cuckolding really started to scare me so I started telling her now that I have more feeling's invested I don't think cuckolding is for me. Well if im being honest with you, it was a lie. The idea of it still very much turns me on but I have a lot of cuck shame. This was a few years ago and we haven't talked about it since. I want to bring it up but scared of even exploring the fantasy now. A lot of it is tied to emotional pain and im kind of stuck in what to do.