Am still a wannabe but have been one for years. I still hold out hope that my wife will one day try having sex with another (specifically her ex bf) but for the moment it remains an elusive dream.

The main reason I have this fantasy is because I have erectile dysfunction. My orgasms are no longer even focused on me fucking her. All I think about is her with another man. And because she has described the kind of dick she misses and wants I find myself actively searching for pics and vids of those kinds of dicks. I now find myself jacking off to those pics / vids imagining her enjoying them. Smelling sucking tasting them. More recently I find myself with a fascination for big uncut ladyboy or shemale cock.

What’s going on with me? Is my sexuality being changed by my condition and the cuckold fantasies? I’ve always been comfortable with my sexuality but I feel increasingly confused.