If you’ve read my earlier posts you know I have had bad ED for the past 9 years (tried it all and am now on waiting list for penile implant). You will also know that I have become more and more obsessed thinking of her hooking up with her ex. Both her and him are married with young kids.

She has admitted to me on numerous occasions that her best sex was with him. More recently I have started doing things to ‘normalise’ these ideas with her.

Today I came next to her as I asked her about the sex she had with him. If he was good in bed. Etc etc. I came hard which I haven’t done around her before. I want her to know I associate my own orgasms with thoughts of them. We even talked about how hot it would be if they bumped into each other (he lives 40 mins away).

I know it is playing with fire. But to me there is nothing hotter than them rekindling because of the amazing sex that work involve…

Does anyone understand where I am coming from?