So we’ve come along way. When I first confessed my feelings about being cucked, it was about a year ago. Initial response was that she didn’t think I was weird or anything and wasn’t disappointed in me or disgusted, but she just wasn’t sure it was something she would ever be able to consider.

Since then, after multiple different conversations about it, she has come around that she would probably be open to trying it. I even talked her into doing it twice before regrouping and deciding if it’s something we wanted to keep doing, reason being if the first is a failure from nerves and what not the second should give us a good feeling for how we both like it.

That brings me to the title of the post, I think it’s both of our faults this hasn’t happened yet. I’ve been trying to not be too pushy about it and talk about it too much, and she doesn’t have a ton of motivation to go out and find someone to have sex with because after all this was my idea.

The reason I feel I’m a lot to blame is because we have most of our conversations about this over text, because it’s easier for me to convey my feelings about it there since I would be nervous doing it in person. I get it, this is something that needs to be discussed fully in person, but I mean this is a huge thing we are talking about 😂 we are talking about my wife who has only had one other partner in her life have sex with other men, so it’s nerve wracking for me to have that courage to talk about it all that much in person. When we do, it’s typically during sex.

We have talked about posting her onto reddit and creating maybe feeld/fetlife accounts, but never end up doing it. And I feel like the main reason for this is I end up jacking off, and then I’m not as motivated to get the ball rolling.

So where I’m at right now is I need to stop fucking jacking off, but keep looking at some porn and stuff to keep me hornier which will allow me to more easily try to get the ball rolling even more.

The biggest hurdle at this point is to make some accounts and post, and reply to people and just have some conversations. I feel like once we can get past that block, it will be much easier to try to make it a reality.

Any input on this? Does the plan sound like it makes sense or am I missing something?