This is something which is bothering me more and more. When we are in the bedroom she is all into it. She loves watching videos of it, she loves hearing stories, she loves imagining doing it, and she cums very hard. If we don't fantasise she actually doesn't have such a big orgasm, so I know she is clearly into it.

But outside of the bedroom it's a huge no no. I mean she won't even entertain a discussion. Alot of times if I try to bring it up, it now just ends in an argument because I am now 'breaking her boundaries and not respecting them' (which I totally get, and most of the time I do respect them, but on rare occasions my impulse will be too strong, especially if im horny, inhibitions are lower, and I might say something) and boom, argument. She flat out says it will NEVER happen and if she wanted to sleep with other men she would leave me.

It leaves me in this weird place where it makes me want it so much more.

But then, part of me, isn't sure myself. Not sure how I would react after. How it might effect our relationship now we added such an extreme situation to it. Would it play on my mind? On her mind? So sometimes I'm glad she says no, but boy most of the time I'm not. I want her to just be open to exploring the idea, and being told no causes me frustration.

Do I just accept that I'll never get to experience this kink in real life?