When my wife (37) and I (35) got married, I knew that she didn’t share lots of details about her sexual past. She has bipolar and lots of her sexual experiencies happened during crises and are hard for her to talk about. So far, what I knew was that she only had sex with her past boyfriends, and she was a bit conservative to talk about her sexual interests. Honestly, sex was a bit mechanical and boring most of the time.

Last year, we talked about exploring a female led relationship to spice things up. It brought us closer and sex became much better (see post history). I even shared to her my interests in hotwifing/cuckolding, but although she said she was fine with it, she would never want someone else.

Last night, while we were chatting, she said she wanted to share something about her past. She said her body count was actually much bigger than she initially told me. She mentioned that during some maniac episodes, she had a sexual compulsion and would fuck several guys a week. And that she fucked somewhere between 50-100 guys before me. She said she didn’t tell me that before because she was afraid of judgement, especially because of her mental health history. But now that we are closer and that I stayed with her during her worst crisis ever this year (including 2 months hospitalization), she felt comfortable sharing it with me.

I felt conflicted at first, because my dick was hard rock knowing about her dirty past, but I was worried about her mental health. So, I said she didn’t have to worry about my judgement, cause I always dreamed to be married to a woman with a high body count and was actually proud of her. Then, I asked if it was only in moments of crises that she was this slutty, and she said no. She said she was the slut emo girl that fucked everyone, but the crises made her more compulsive. At this point, I had pre-cum leaking off me, but I was still unsure if she was also feeling hot. I asked if me showing my excitement would make her feel more comfortable about it, and as soon as he agreed, I kissed her passionately and brought her hands to my pants. She enjoyed it. I asked her if she missed fucking around and if she would like to go back to it as my hotwife. “If this is what you like, I won’t mind doing it!”

We moved to the bedroom and I asked if I could masturbate her while we imagined a scenario. And so we did (I won’t describe as its not the focus). After she did cum, she ordered me to go kiss her feet while I jerked off. She asked if I liked it and if I was sure about what I wanted. Then she simply said “then, I will be your hotwife and I will make you a cuck soon!” I swear I never had such an intense orgasm…

We had a regular uneventful Sunday today, and I write this while looking at her and think if all that will become true or not. Or if I should be concerned about her mental health and the impact of this topic. Any suggestions?