This isn’t a “how do I accept being a cuckold” nor a “I don’t want to be a cuckold” post. My interest began seven years ago, and it quickly became an obsession. I spend at least 40 hours per week actively thinking about it. I began ERP therapy three months ago. Within the first couple sessions, I discussed the topic with my therapist. She wasn’t concerned about it at that time because I don’t have any aversion to it and understand that at least the fantasy is appealing to me.

I was also diagnosed with severe social anxiety, PTSD and severe depression.

My OCD is triggered through shame and guilt. I experience almost zero anxiety outside of social anxiety. What I have noticed is the social anxiety triggers the guilt and shame and starts my obsessing. I believe that my interest in being a cuckold causes thoughts which trigger my social anxiety (what if someone finds out or what does my wife think of me), and that triggers the guilt and shame, and then the obsessing happens.

I didn’t bring cuckolding up again until yesterday because I considered it resolved after my therapist expressed little concern about it in the initial session but the obsessing is consuming my life.

My exposures currently consist of stuff like writing a script, looking at the word cuckold, stock pictures, videos, etc.. My therapist said she could not (for ethical reasons) suggest sexual exposures, but it sounded like she hinted that they can be beneficial and I can create them myself if I want.

If you have experience with OCD surrounding this subject or any others, can you please help me think of potential sexual exposures (the kind my therapist can’t recommend)?