Ok so I've had a unique revelation recently!

I've been with my girl for about 2 years and things are incredible, BY far the best relationship I've ever had, like not even close! She honestly surpasses my dream relationship all the time lol! I truly am lucky.

That being said, all of her dates have been solo and most of them not resulting in pics or videos. I've been totally fine with this as she was new to the life when we met and I want her to be happy and comfortable!

Well one of my favorite things is being on the phone with her while she's having her fun. (She calls me and sets her phone off to the side) but in the 2 years we've only done the call thing twice and they were pretty recent!

Well she had an opportunity come up with a new guy that would have been a perfect situation for me to be on the call so I asked if she would. She was nervous and didn't really answer during the massage I gave her before her date. I told her it was ok if she didn't but that she had to give me the reason why she didn't want to when she got there.

When she arrived she said she would rather text but didn't have a reason why other than nerves! This got me all fucked up in the head thinking I made her nervous by being on the phone and I NEVER want to make my girl feel that way! I didn't let her notice but I was fucked up that night lol! I just played it off so that she could have her fun but I was hurting for sure!

We ended up having a conversation about it the next day as I was hoping to dive into why she was nervous... but when we talked about it, she couldn't really explain anything other than she was so nervous and didn't want to call because she "didn't know what to expect"

Well unfortunately I kinda broke down and the conversation ended there with me thinking I was the problem and she really didn't want to do the calls or pics or videos thing! I ended up going for a walk. Like 4 or 5 miles and it was sprinkling lol. I go back and it was late so she was already in bed and I climb in next to her!

The next morning I wake up and start thinking about things! Ultimately I decided that I don't want to make her nervous or anything but we've still been having fun, so I could be ok with never getting those things as long as we could work through and talk about it!

I'm always at the gym when she wakes up (I'm a morning person and she definitely isn't) and she needed some time to process what I said so she asked for some time to think! Later that day she sends me the longest message she's ever sent me explaining in detail her thoughts and feelings about everything!

She explained that she is very nervous about the pics and videos and everything but doesn't know why. But that it also has nothing to do with me and she very much loved my reactions when we've done the calls before! She assured me that I never forced her into anything and that she's also very willing to try and work through things to get me anything and everything I want from this lifestyle!

To get to the point! Since we've talked and she explained her side of why she didn't want to call me that night.... thoughts of her getting fucked have become ridiculously more intense!! Just knowing how committed she is to me and that this woman will go to the ends of the earth to make me happy, it's the best feeling in the world! But then also knowing that she still loves being naughty and already can't wait for another sleepover where this giant man wakes her up in the middle of the night by shoving his cock inside her!!! Fuck my life, the thought of it makes me shake with excitement! I both love this girl more than I can explain, and want her to get fucked over and over again by anyone and everyone she wants!!!

My question is, do communication breakthroughs like this usually cause more intensity with the hotwife stuff!?? I absolutely love it and don't want it to change, I was just curious if it's happened to anyone else!?