Title, i used to feel like a pretty average dude with “normal” sex desires, although always a bit on the kinky side. I had pretty normal sex with my high school sweetheart, but when college began and distance became a factor, my gf really started to sell me on this idea.. I was honestly a lil hesitant at first, it was also super hot to me but at the same time the thought drove me crazy in jealousy.

She started to become really slutty over a years time and, hinting me that she would tell me details about it after etc. And all of a sudden she asked if she could find a fwb, and i was so horny that i agreed immediately. A few days later it’s all setup and i get cucked for the first time, i loved it so much right until i came, then i hated it. But after some comforting from her afterwards, and us taking a short break from it, i felt myself starting to crave it so much. And i’ve never been able to let go of that feeling, i don’t feel like i can really satisfy women anymore sexually, i just want to watch/hear them get fucked and then have all the emotional ties.

Anyone else relate?