Since we’ve been in the lifestyle for 18 years, I don’t often reach out for input. But something has happened recently that I’d be interested in the thoughts of other IRL cucks. When we started in the lifestyle we agreed on certain rules, some initiated by her and some by me. Most were out of naivety and fell rather quickly. One of the rules she insisted on was that I always be present when she fucks. Way back then she explained that way she wouldn’t feel guilty as if she were cheating. After nine years in the lifestyle she discovered huge, and became submissive to bulls and a self admitted size queen.

Fast forward to our current situation. For the last two years we have had a master who is 20 years younger than us and is an experienced Dom. She has told me even when we are not in a sexual situation that “he is absolutely the best fuck I have ever had.” A few weeks back he and I were talking about our experiences and I mentioned that one of the last remaining rules was that she would not fuck without me in the room. He said “I would have no problem getting her to break that rule. On Saturday, I will arrive at 9 PM. Leave your digital camera on the credenza, and do not come downstairs until 10 o’clock. I will start the camera right away and you can see how easily I break down that barrier.” I did as told. When he arrived he complemented her outfit and said he wanted to take some pictures and video. He picked up my camera, put it on video and told her to turn around. Then he put that down on the credenza faced towards the sofa and took a couple of still pictures with his phone. After kissing a bit on the sofa, He spread her legs and got down on his knees and ate her to a couple of orgasms. Then he stood up and put the head of his big cock against her pussy. She whispered “is his camera still on?“ He answered yes and she put her hands on his chest as if she were protesting, but it was clear that it was halfhearted. He said “I want to show him something.“ Again, whispering, perhaps thinking that it would not be picked up by the camera she said “whatever you like“. He started thrusting, a little more in her pussy each time and turned his face to the camera and said “she’s taking my fucking dick.” She looked at the camera and spoke at normal volume “no I’m not. We’re waiting…” at that he started a rhythmic fucking and within seconds she said “we’re not waiting we’re not fucking waiting.“ This is already too long so I won’t tell you how the rest of that visit went, but now on some subsequent visits he gives me the same direction (to stay upstairs in the bathroom for the first hour), and she actually initiates the main event without any hesitation or mention of waiting. The first time that the rule fell, I sort of expected that. But here is the development.

In reviewing last week’s video, that I’ve watched several times without noticing, I noticed that she was not wearing her wedding and engagement rings. She has always worn them when playing, and in fact makes it a point to flaunt them in a picture or video. He has an emasculated me in her eyes and feminized me to the point that they both call me “sissy faggot” and he has gotten her to say that he is the only man in the room while they are in the throes of passion.

She is a jeweler and always wears her rings. I know that failure to wear the rings was not inadvertent even though when I asked her last night she said “I must’ve forgotten to put them on.“

Would you see this as something significant, or am I reading too much into it? She has always been able to separate emotions and sex, but now I am wondering and concerned about the message that she intended to deliver.