I'm alone this weekend so I am reflecting back on my girlfriend and I's experience with cuckolding and hotwifing. We have had many starts and stops, bumps along the way, but today... we are in the best moment of having amazing lifestyle experiences today.

We have been winding our way through the lifestyle for about 5 years now. It started as me having experience with other couples as a "bull/third" and then her being cautiously open to the idea of swinging. Over the years I have sort of transitioned away from wanting to primarily to spend my 'free time' doing separate MFM, MF, and MFMF encounters to going deeper in a submissive cuckold role. And lately, I've opened up to bi play, which was something I could never have imagined a few years ago.

I felt like my gf is 90% of the way bought in today to "the vision" of the fantasy and fetish. Before, it felt like she was maybe 50% of the way bought in with the lifestyle. I have always encouraged her to find other guys to meet with, which she used to do every once in a blue moon. Those were generally hit or miss encounters. Sometimes she had fun, sometimes the guys were duds. But anytime she'd find someone good, they would start dating someone or something else where she couldn't see him anymore.

But lately, she seems to be hitting her stride with finding ways to enjoy this lifestyle. I recently found a third guy who had a shared fantasy about a couple submitting to him, which is exactly the kind of scenario i am into when having bi fantasies. He has turned out to be amazing to spend time with. I fuck my GF pretty good, but one challenge we have had is my sub-interests have kind of led me to a mental state where I'm not as "toppy" as i used to be.

This guy has been a true pleasure because he's handsome, incredibly respectful and easy to chat with, super fit, more hung than me (i am big), and can fuck her for hours way better than I could over that kind of time period. I don't find guys 'attractive', but have found that if I am going to be in a sub-role, it's gotta be with someone who is 'more alpha', I guess (which sounds so cringe but it just clicks for me).

Bottoming to him is amazing too. Holy shit I had no idea what that would be like. Being able to be with him and my gf and he turns her into sexual jello, and then my girlfriend sensually telling me that she wants me to get fucked by him... ughh 😝 that feeling is so addicting. Doing something you'd never agree to "out of heat" because emotionally it's the ultimate submissiveness desire when you're so absolutely horny for that same amazing pleasure your partner just had. That acceptance of needing to experience it too

I love pegging with my GF. She's great at it but i will have to say... getting the real thing from someone dominant... it's such a different experience. I was so surprised how much i enjoyed it. Being forced to eat my sexy GF out, watching her eyes and her glow after being fucked silly... watching how much she legit liked what was happening. That's the exact submissiveness kinky stuff I love about this lifestyle. What i love so much about the cuck bottom experience is losing all sense of control. With pegging, there's still a power dynamic mismatched as I'm stronger/larger than my gf. Bottoming to another strong hung guy, you can't focus on ANYTHING but getting absolutely stretched out, pulled in closer, and used. It's the most insane sexual pleasure, literally screaming in pleasure and grunting.

I think our experiences with him and that vulnerability of doing this has helped my GF feel more comfortable of exploring more.

She ended up finding another guy who absolutely rocks her world. They met on an app and met pretty quickly, which is not typical of my GF. I didn't really know much about him or what he looked like. Usually when she goes on dates, I get insanely horny with cuck angst and love when she wants me to go in chastity and stay home plugged (usually she wants me to reclaim so she doesn't care for chastity too much).

The first time she met this guy, I was at home just working. Totally not in a sexy mood in anyway. I was in the shower by the time she got home and seeing her stumble her way (sober, I could just tell she got fucked really good) through the apartment was adorable.

I asked her how it was and she sheepishly said "oh my god... he was so fucking hot". My GF is not the kind of gal who every expresses anything along the line of "he/she is so pretty, so fit, so big, so sexy, etc". Unless she's getting fucked then she will dirty talk a little. She finds that way of talking kind of silly.

When I heard her say that, I couldn't even find words. I just came up to her and wrapped myself around her to embrace her and tell her i so glad it sounded like a fun night. I wasn't horny before, but that switched turned on and I wanted to worship her immediately.

The reclaiming dirty talk is so hot too. I loved her sharing what happened. It sounded like this guy was an actual 10/10... the way the night played out with him, if I wrote the full story, people here would legit think it was fake. Not joking at all.

Anyways, this guy sounds experienced and likes DVP and DP which is something we've never done. My gf doesn't talk about many fantasies, but she couldn't help herself talk while I was fucking her how much she wanted this guy to fuck and creampie her ass while she had me as well.

This guy has helped her unlock something... a more mutual desire to have hedonistic encounters with other hot guys and couples. I felt like I was the one who fully wanted this kind of lifestyle, legit 100%. Now I think she's much closer to 100% as well. She's not as strong about 24/7 cuckolding (which I am not either), but she seems to genuinely like how she is now the one in the relationship having all the fun while I have to be a good boy waiting for her.

Final thoughts

This lifestyle isn't for everyone. It's fucking hard to fully accept the reality of living out hotwife or cuckold experiences, truly. On both partners it's tough. It has taken us 5 years and A LOT of communication to get here.

The ultimate cuck experiences require 110% buy in from you (as the guy). You have to honestly get off on your partner seeking out other hot, hung guys who are going to fuck her way better than you can

Finding other partners is also so god damn difficult. I know it because I have been that third guy many times. Since I enjoy being the 'male partner giving up his slut wife', I feel like I know exactly the kind of things you want in a guy... being honest, respectful, clean, attractive, in shape, hold a conversation, etc. My best advice: fully describe to other couples what kind of cuckolding expectations and desires you have.

But when you find other guys who are also fully bought in with the lifestyle... that's when you can reach the mountain top of cuckolding. The fun thing is is that roleplaying this fantasy is fun, sure, but it's fake. Realizing other guys are the key component in this lifestyle is what makes this fantasy reality and such an amazing experience.

I love these things about the lifestyle so much

• worshiping your partner, helping her have the best, most incredible sexual experiences
• being able to share your beautiful partner and the cuck angst that comes with someone seduces and using her
  
• subverting your sexual pleasure, which enhances all the feelings about this, and makes everything so much more raw.
• seeing your partner genuinely excited about cuckolding, happily playing into humiliation, teasing, and all that sort of stuff
• being able to "supercharge" this fantasy with bi cuckolding and accepting that you also want to be used and please someone else who is "better than you sexually" (at least in that moment/that night lol)

I still have other non cuck fantasies i want to experience, but it's honestly such an addicting, advanced way to have sex with your lover when things all go right. Some couples have traditional missionary, boring as hell sex. I would rather having sex in a much more complicated and exhilarating way 😈