OK so I mostly just am curious about people's opinions and maybe some ideas to help.

I am in a phenomenal relationship, the best I've ever been in! I love and trust her more than anyone I've ever been with!! We live together and are both incredibly happy!!

She had never heard of the hotwife cuckold thing when we first met but she indulged me a few times when we first started dating! But we fell pretty hard for each other and she took a break while we were getting serious! It's now been a year later and we have the most amazing relationship ever!!

And now she's recently gotten back into seeing other guys, at my encouragement!

She's been with 2 guys that she's slept with before and the other night was one of the most intense nights I've had and it got me thinking!

She had gone over to his place after work and was planning to have a few drinks. She usually comes home right after but since she was going to be drinking, we decided to leave the door open for her to stay the night if she had too much to drive!

I am 1000000% OK with this as like I said, I love her and I trust her! We also have the location app so I know where she is at all times!

Here comes the issue I am having.. so this guy thinks that she is single and dating right now so she doesn't like to text me while she's with him nor do I get pictures or anything. On this particular night I was checking on her and saw about what time she arrived! She texted me that she misses me right as she got there too! But then nothing...

An hour goes by.. then two... then 3...😳😳😳😳😳🥵🥵🥵 now anyone in this kind of relationship probably knows what was going through my mind but let me elucidate... the first hour wasn't bad because I took the kiddo mini golfing but even then I can't stop thinking about her. I love her so much and I'm so glad that she's having fun and enjoying herself! I know that she loves me too and I truly believe she thinks about me every once and a while when she is with these other guys!! I know she's going to come home to me no matter what, and yet my mind races with negative anxious thoughts sometimes...

Like "how hard is it to text me every once in a while?"

"How is she going to forget about me and just pass out, she couldn't even say goodnight"

"Wtf, does she just forget about me while she's with him"

I know these thoughts are all bullshit, and fortunately I never lost my cool! I wanted to text her mad and complaining so many times but then I thought about it... and put myself in her shoes... OK so she's with a guy who thinks she's single, what's he gonna think is she's texting someone while they're flirting and having a good time! Then in regards to her falling asleep without texting me... I know if I a few drinks, I'm gonna struggle to text someone before I pass out too, everyone forgets stuff when they're buzzed! And ultimately I love her and the whole point is for her to have a good time!!

So I just texted her acknowledging that she probably fell asleep and that it was OK! Told her I loved her and that I couldn't wait to see her in the morning!

Well about a half hour later I get a text saying she did fall asleep and that she was getting ready and going to head home now!

When she got home we had one of the most amazing sexual experiences of my life! Legit top 5!!! With no text the entire time she was with him, no pictures, no video, just me enjoying her after she was done and telling me the details. I want all of that stuff so bad but I'm completely happy with how that night went...

But how do you get through the roller coaster lol