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Hey. yea sorry, I have not really been in the mood to explain things lately. But basically, our first time happened. It was with someone we know. Well, not exactly know as in part of our group, but someone related to someone from our circle. As you know we have already talked about it, she kind of established some rules and then after she showed no interest in it for a while, but she has been extremely affectionate since we talked about it. So we pretty much stopped having sex, and we did a lot of oral sex for a while.
So nothing had happened for a while. Until we had went to a get together and she was talking to a guy who is cousins of one of our friends. He is not always around but he does come around from time to time. It was one of those situations where you see something you cant unsee it. I dont know at what point they started talking throughout the night, but from the corner of my eye, I saw that he had brought her a beer and handed it to her, and thats when I noticed that there was already some interest going on there between them. So I started paying attention to them and I noticed that there was some mild discreet flirting from him to her. I did not really see her reciprocate, but I knew that she was interested because she was around him for most of the evening (like sitting near by, facing him, etc). I began to get horny thinking about something happening, and I would excuse myself to the bathroom and I would jo thinking about it. Long story short, I joined in the conversation and got friendly with him.
I invited him to come to our place and smoke with us. So while we were drinking and smoking at home, everything was cool, I would excuse myself to the bathroom to JO because I was so horny. It got really late, and things winded down significantly since we were drinking and smoking. The three of us were sitting on the couch with Netflix on, Taylor was in the middle and I could see that something was brewing. So I pretended to have fallen asleep. I heard some whispering and I could hear that they were kissing. And then they got up and went to the room and left me on the couch.
So I immediately ran to the bedroom door and was trying to listen in. I tried to look under the door, but I couldn't see anything, as the lights were off. I could hear whispering and stuff but I couldn't make out what they were saying. I could tell there was some kissing going on, and I was able to hear that she was giving him a bj because I could hear the sounds and I could hear him whispering to her. I was very hard and I was JO furiously and came in my hands. I washed my hands and I laid on the floor right next to the wall next to the door to listen.
So I heard sucking sounds, and I heard really light moaning sounds from her. I heard some faint clapping sounds and that was enough to make me cum in my hands again. I didn't get hard anymore, but I sat there listening in and I cant begin to tell you how i began to feel. I got upset, and I went back to the couch. I sat on the couch for a while, and then I would go back to the door to listen. They were still doing things cause I could hear whispering and sex noises. After a while things went silent for a while, and I went back to the couch. I was really drunk and really aroused, but I could not get hard.
Well. He didn't leave until it was like 7 in the morning. I slept on the couch, and I woke up with the noise of the bedroom door opening. He went from the room straight out to the front door and left. I immediately got hard again and started to JO. I went to the room and she was sleeping. She had clothes on, but the bed was all messed up. I laid in bed next to her and she was passed out. I JO'd right there next to her for a long time imagining what happened but didn't finish because my dick was hurting pretty bad.
So later in the day, we talked about it. She admitted that they had sex and I didn't tell her I heard anything, I acted like I had no idea. Maybe I should have admitted that I heard them? One thing was really bothering me though, and it was that I did not see a condom or a wrapper anywhere. I asked her if he wore a condom and she said "of course" and that he had one in his wallet. But they had sex for a really long time and I know it was more than once, because I was awake pretty much the whole night, and I feel like she is not being honest, because he would have needed more than one.
But anyway, it has happened 2 more times since then, and these other 2 times have been the same situation. We come, smoke and drink on the couch, then I act like I fell asleep on the couch and then they go to the room. I have JO so many times i go limp and my abdomen hurts. The second time, he really let her have it cause I could clearly hear clapping and her muffled groans. I would crawl into bed the following morning and hug her and fall asleep next to her.
I have been smelling her when I lay next to her. Like I smell her face, her neck, and I can smell the sex. I have been hoping she wakes up one of those times so I can have sex with her too, but she sleeps right through me jumping in bed.
I dont know if this is normal, but our relationship has been so good. So much affection at all times, and so much love has been projecting between us. We dont have sex, not even had oral sex, but i get so aroused when we make out that I sometimes orgasm in just rubbing against my basketball shorts.
So I have some things to ask.. I cant wait till the next time, because there are some things I want to try. What do you guys think of me trying the door handle and see if the door is locked or not? I also really really want to do something with her after he leaves, but she is never awake. How can I wake her up and get her in the mood, should I just wake her up myself? Wake her up with kisses? What about the condom part? How do I talk to her about that? In the subsequent encounters, I have not asked her about it, but I look around the room and I dont see condoms or wrappers anywhere.
And something also really important. During the sessions, after I orgasm and sit there and wait to get hard again, I get extremely insecure, upset and emotional. How do I make this go away? This has been the hardest part to deal with because even by looking at her when nothing is happening, like when we are at work, I get upset about it. Its like stages, I get upset, I get horny, then I go finish in the bathroom and then things subside for a little while. How have you guys been managing this?
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