I’ve been a cuckold for many years. I’ve had experiences participating, watching, listening or simply not being there. I’ve had my wife have more than one lover at a time or periods where she was struggling to find one.

It is however that one lover she had that made her rethink our relation that I hated the most and that I find myself getting excited the most as well. The emotional connection grew over a period of two years, love happened for both of them. Her spending more time with him than with me, them dating, the gifts, the weekends the “no, he needs me today” and all of those painful feelings are the ones I get aroused to the most. That moment when it’s too much for you as a cuck and you ask her to back off and she answers “I don’t think I can”. The moment you ask while aroused if she loves him and she says “yes I do” and the moment you ask while not aroused at all if she loves him and the reply is the same “yes I do”.

This life is a rollercoaster of emotions and arousal yet we seem to always look for the “extreme”, not just sex wise, emotion wise. Maybe I’m different but probably not so…do some of you feel the same? Is the feeling of losing to another man the person you love the most an unbelievable arousal?