I’m posting because while yes we all have some humiliation that goes with this but where I find myself now is probably rock bottom in the lifestyle. As I’ve mentioned in other posts my now ex and I had a bull who was very very dominant and controlling, to the point where not only was I cleaning up and sucking his cock, he was fucking me on a regular basis as well along with random others. I had never been with a guy or even imagined I’d let what happen happened. In the moments I was eager to please and to make my ex and the bull happy. Where I find myself now is the bull ended things with us. Not long after my ex found a new bull , and left me to be with him. I feel like it’s the most pathetic place I can possibly be in with the lifestyle and as a man