It was right after she cheated on me the second time and we broke up. I got real drunk and texted her, saying that I had to tell her something. I then called her and told her that I thought it was hot that she cheated, and that I get off imagining it. She was very surprised lol, she actually said she was relieved that that was all I had wanted to tell her.

Then I asked her what she thought. Still surprised and kinda not fully believing me, she asked me to clarify: "Are you asking if you can, like, watch me with someone else??" I told her no, I don't necessarily want to watch, however if she wanted to tell me about it or show me pictures then I would like that. She still didn't fully believe me I don't think, and didn't seem to know what to say, so I just got a "Huh." sort of response from her.

I got worried and asked her if she thought that was weird or if it made her think less of me. She replied, "It definitely doesn't make me think less of you. It's okay if you're into that." We were planning on taking on a trip in a few days, so I asked if she would maybe wanna find someone while we were out of town. She told me something like, "I don't wanna ruin our trip, let's just enjoy ourselves and have fun like normal. We can maybe talk about it after."

Then we talked about normal stuff. After we hung up, I just went about my day. Later, still kinda worried, I asked her again if it bothered her. Still, she reassured me it wasn't a big deal. Eventually we went to bed and everything was fine. The next dag I was still really insecure because I didn't get a definitive answer about if she was into it or not. I was really worried I'd weirded her out, or changed everything, despite her reassurances. A day or two after telling her, I felt too ashamed and so I lied to her, saying "I want you to know I didn't mean what I told you. I was just drunk and confused by the cheating, I don't want to see you with another man." She said it was fine, she hadn't thought I could stand to see her with someone else.

Now, a few years later, we haven't talked about it since. We've been broken up this whole time, but have been kind of FWBs. Things are starting to look like we might get back together, and before we do I kind of want to broach the subject again. I know she wasn't mad about it when I told her, and as far as I can tell she hasn't really judged me for it, but I feel like she didn't say much about how she felt about actually doing it.

I've never told anyone about this. From an outsiders perspective, do her answers seem like a good sign? Does the fact that she didn't outright deny it mean that she's likely open to it? All of her answers were as close to what I e written here as I remember.

Side note: When her and I were drunk a year after I confessed, I asked her if she would ever suck my best friends dick cause he never gets laid. She casually and confidently answered that she would be down as long as I was cool with it. We never discussed that again.