this is the whole story im with a girl 7 years and our sex isnt vanilla and not full bdsm, about 5 years ago i got into prostate play and she doesnt know btw at all, since then that lead me down the path of being a cuck, my dicks useless, i shouldnt be alloyed to fuck anymore, everything like that im fucking crazy into, but she doesnt know any of that, when im with her im 90% always the dom, i tie her up tease her etc, but now it takes me 30 minutes to cum because i dont want to do it that way because id rather her ball busting me, ruining my orgasms or fucking someone else with me in chasity, ive never told her any of this, and its partaily my fault,

recently though when she gives me a wank shes started squeezing my balls and i moan louder to try tell her its fucking unreal, and when cuddling ive started taking her hand and slapping my balls and saying its good so im trying to make baby steps to get her to dom me, only other way ive been trying to make it work is basically become a prejac and make myself get ed, through prone masterbation or sitting on something to stop blood from getting to my dick, and the goal is for my dick to basically not work and force the conversation of maybe i have to fuck her with toys to satify her then mention someone else, sorry for the long story.