Couple years ago my (25f) partner (35m) mentioned being into cuckold in his past. He said there was "something about watching your partner get destroyed" that turned him on. But also says things like "I don't care about me, I want you to have all the pleasure" and "mine's not the biggest but..." He's also a really big guy 6'7" and muscular, who has a competitive nature with other men. He is excited that I'm going to audition at a strip club for the first time. I think he's turned on by the idea of men watching me. How can I playfully find out what he's thinking since he's shy about this, and in so many words says it's a thing of the past. Do kinks just go away like that?