I am an 18yo M, and have been lifting weights, climbing, and running throughout all of high school. As someone that has struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts all my life, working out has been the only consistent "cure". Admittedly, during my senior year I became obsessed. I would lift probably 6 times a week with no rest and would climb and run on top of that. I was doing anything to keep my mind off of what was going on around me. About three months ago, I pack up my things and head off to college. Around the first two weeks, I begin to notice a tingling sensation in my elbow during my push day. This pain continues to get worse and worse until I had to stop lifting all together. I decided to buy a brace, go to physical therapy, take NSAIDS and corticosteroids, and stop lifting the way I used to while mainly focusing on swimming and running. However, the pain and tingling is still there. If I brush the wrong way against my inner arm, I get a shock from my elbow to forearm, to pinky and ring finger. Whenever I twist my forearm or wrist, my right elbow pops. After doing some research, consulting a doctor and personal experience, I fear that this is something that I might never heal from. I have another doctor appointment scheduled in 3 days, and am considering surgery. But, the prognosis of any recovery seems slim. Considering how much working out helped me throughout my life combined with being in a totally new environment, I deal with severe depression and constant anxiety. Now I have no motivation to even leave my room, and have resolved my self to thinking that if this issue doesn't get better, then I will probably kill myself (even though I survived the first attempt). If anyone has had this issue and now does not, please respond and let me know. Because right now, I feel that this will never get better and that my life is over.