This is a follow up to my post from earlier concerning my wife's stepsister who I've had a long time crush on. For a tldr catch up, I'm closeted transgender. My wife's stepsis (T) is one of the few people who I ever came out to and didn't outright reject me. She encouraged and supported me, but we haven't talked since some drama came out last year. Go read my previous post (and comments) for a longer explanation.

Anyway, I believe she's cut me out from a lot of ways of talking to her. I think my phone number is blocked and we're not friends anymore on Facebook. I have an email address that I could try reaching out to her with, but I'm not sure I should. My life feels incomplete without her in it in some way but I know my wife would be outraged if I tried talking to T. I also am aware it's a pretty selfish reason for wanting to talk to her; Mostly I want a chance to explain my feelings and actions. But I also just miss talking to her. I miss everything about our friendship and the idea that there could have been more. I don't know what I thought could ever happen, but I know I just miss her.

So here's where I need help. Do I try the email? Should I try reaching out to a friend who knows her and see if I can talk to her that way? Should I leave it alone and keep trying to move on? What do I do?