I'm trying to process things so I want to write it down and post, ur thoughts would be appreciated. I also hope this is the correct sub.

When I was 15 or so I used to come home from school and put on my mom's bra and absolutely love it. I'm overweight so it actually fit perfectly. I'm 33 now and I still love wearing them, I'm now a 42c bra size. I'll get instantly aroused even thinking about putting one on. The last 5 years I would always put lingerie, dresses, fake nails, stockings, etc in my shopping cart and immediately cancel the order. I always imagine how I'll feel and look while dressed up super feminine but can never pull that trigger. I watch nothing but feminization instruction videos and imagine what could be.

I'll go throw stretches where it consumes my life but I'll always push it aside but recently I've been super close to going for it.

I guess I'm worried what would happen if I look in the mirror while all dressed up and love what I see and won't be sure what to do next.

I appreciate it if you read this far, I just need to write this stuff down.

Any questions, comments are very welcome. I'm here to learn and explore