I'm 32, I've always had trouble looking at needles going into myself or anyone else, even in movies and TV shows where you know it's fake. The only issue with this is that I can't give myself my medication because of it. For the past decade or so my mother has been giving me Stelara, and Cimzia before that. I want to be able to do it myself to feel more independent since I already feel limited in some ways by this disease. Needing someone else to give me my medication is just another thing I have to be dependent on.

I actually wanted humeria (insurance wouldn't cover it) because it looked like it was designed in a way where it'd be easier to self inject without having to look.

Anyone have advice?

Update: thanks to everyone that suggested seeing a therapist. I'm going to ask my current therapist for advice about this.

To everyone else that can't read: My mom is injecting me with Stelara now. She has been doing this for years.

I want to be able to do it myself and NOT have to depend on another person for this if I don't have to.

PAIN is not the issue I have. My issue is LOOKing at injections.

I'm not going to screw around with changing medication either when Stelara has been working well for me. It's insane a few people seemed to suggest that. Why the hell would I want to risk developing antibodies to a medication that's working for me now and going on something else that might not work as well???