Hey guys,

Had a colonoscopy today, haven’t had one since 2018 after coming off a bad flair. I started having a lot of symptoms again about a month ago. My doctor was confused because I’m already on humira once a week and methotrexate once a week( and historically humira has worked great for me. He added Endocort about two weeks ago to see if it would do anything for me. He was doubtful going in today that he’d find anything, but when I woke up from the procedure he walked in and told me that my colon is looking pretty bad. Just from one of the pictures there’s 8 ulcers all right next to each other in my transverse colon and lots of inflammation & bleeding throughout it. Now he’s putting me back on a moderate dose of prednisone (40 mg a day) and is thinking about adding 6-MP back in, as well a getting my humira levels checked to see if we have to scrap humira altogether and switch to another biologic. On top of that my health insurance is going to lapse in a little over a month and I’ll have to find a new plan.

I’m just pretty stressed out about all this. It seems like I can never catch a break, and I know this isn’t the right sub for it but historically I’ve always turned back to opiates when my flares get bad and that leads me down a whole other tumultuous path. It’s hard to remain faithful and trust that something good is planned for me and someone is watching over me when it seems like i continuously get handed the shit end of the stick.