I’ve been (un)lucky enough to be working since shutdown began, however two of my coworkers have now tested positive. I’m always very careful about masks & hand washing, reminding guests that their mask needs to be fully on & reminding team we need to sanitize. I typically work morning shift as a key holder at a smoothie shop in California, so more than half my shift is only with one other person & slow customer-wise. However in the past 2 weeks it’s been very hot & I’ve had 2 extended shifts with more coworkers & guests. After the second positive, I opted to get tested, which meant I have taken unpaid leave until I get my results. Since Sunday evening I’ve been mostly in my room, with my family already treating me like I’m contagious, which I know is logical, but it’s making me spiral even more. With nothing to do, I’m driving myself up the wall thinking I’ve exposed everyone I love to this disease that I MUST ALREADY HAVE, even though I have not gotten any results back yet. I’m realizing that working gave me some sort of illusion of control because there were rules & sanitations to follow & now I’m realizing I’m utterly helpless. I really don’t know how to calm myself down & not obsess over my results.