Man, you might wanna buckle up for this one. So, I get this random message request on Reddit. I open it and I thought it was just a spam/bot account, but the message had a quote from one of the roll call posts that I had. She asked me if I was interested in conversing with her and I told her yes.

So we made little small talk and she asked me about what my interactions were like with other older women, what am I after, and etc. One thing led to another and she sent me a selfie of herself and she looked very beautiful for her age. She didn't look like she was in her 50s at all! I sent her one back and she was telling me how handsome I was. I thanked her and we exchanged numbers.

We started texting each other, making more small talk. She asked me if "I would be her friend and possibly more? And if things don't work out, then we'll always be the best of friends." and I told her, "Yeah why not?" (Should've took heed in that..) Then eventually we got on the phone.

We started talking about the different stories about our interactions with other people but in different details. Then it was just more small talk, but she always somehow sprinkled in the fact that "I know more than you. I've been around for X amount of years and etc.." Somehow the conversation got turned over to about young black men are dying in Chicago. You know, killing one another over petty BS? A little disclaimer, I'm not cut from that cloth.

I'm aware of what's going on, but what can I do? Only thing that'll be feasible for me is to just steer clear of that and keep on keeping on. I told her in midst of her rant about it, "Yeah, it's wild out there. To be honest, I'm not really cut from that cloth. I wasn't raised in those types of environments so it's hard for me to really connect with that culture. Only thing I can do is take notes, and learn what not to do to get myself caught up in something like that."

She IMMEDIATELY started shaming me. She started saying stuff like, "Wow, that fcked up. How can you say such a thing like you don't give a fck about them? You're not connected like that so you don't care?? How dare you??" It pissed me off so bad that I immediately got into defense mode and had to defend myself. Because she was trying to question my character like I had to be passionate about everything.

That eventually settled down and we just chit chatted about smaller stuff. Looking back on that now, I think she liked when I got riled up lol. The next day, we text back and forth. When I was texting her, I wasn't going over the top with it. Just answering how I saw fit and if I didn't want to engage because I didn't see fit, then I would respond accordingly. Again she kept feeling the need to CONSTANTLY keep reminding me about how she's so smart about such and such. She's been around longer than I think and so forth.

Really became to be annoying at this point. I also noticed that anytime I wasn't engaging in certain topics with her because I didn't know much of it or, she felt like her answer was the end all be all and I wasn't feeling the same, she would always try to pick out little things about myself and try to put them on blast persay. Which was really unnecessary at times and I made sure to let her know that, but this woman was stubborn and stuck in her ways. Later that night, we got on Google duo. We video chatted and she had a nice figure, very fit, but THICCCCCC. lol.

We made small talk and the topic of music came up. So I gave her a few of my songs to listen to. She asked me what do I do? So I told her that I rap, but I'm trying to learn the beat making side of music also. I mostly just rap, I told her. Told her that I'm a student of the game, I study it, I do everything on my own, etc. I view my music as art and treat it as such. Rightfully so, I called myself an artist. She says to me, "You wanna know if you're artist and you really got something? Go to a state where no one knows you, play your shit and see what the response is. That's how you know if you got something."

Keep in mind that I said earlier she's set in her ways. I told her, "Yeah, but I have a different way of doing it. We might just be chilling and playing some music. I'll throw on a song of mine in the playlist to see what the reaction is. They don't know I rap and I just act like I've heard this person recently. Then whatever the reaction is, I'll go further in detail or just never mention it around them." Then before I can finish or go even further in detail, she butts in mid thought and asks me. "So you put your art into the world so you can get approval of other people?" I said, "Not really. Yes and no but-" She retorts, "Then you're not an artist...."

WHO TF ARE YOU TELL ME WHAT I AM AND WHAT I'M NOT?? I was pissed off at this point. She went on this entire rant about how she was in the music industry for x amount of years and an artist did this or that. I told her that when I shared my music around other people who did music, sometimes I would get comparisons to other rappers, whom of which I respect their penmanship, and I would get ecstatic. Because that lets me know where my caliber of penmanship sits. So I would take it as a compliment and would be surprised that they see it like that. She says, "That's not a compliment! You take that as a compliment for sounding like someone else??" She just kept on lol.

Then when I told her that people can hear other techniques, she said I'm like the number paintings. Where you see a number for area and the number tells you what color to paint. She was really trying to take me there. Lol. Then she asks me if I can freestyle, I told her I'm really more skilled at writing than freestyling. If I'm freestyling, then I'm really just having fun rhyming. "It doesn't have to rhyme if you freestyling." Those were her EXACT WORDS. At that point, I just told her that because there's an age gap. There's going to be a level of disconnect between me and you when it comes to music. You remember it at a time when it was like that, but times have changed. So I'm just gonna move the conversation along. She says, "Hey whatever helps you sleep at night 😊) Being a smart ass, I caught on but just left the shit alone.

Later that night, she was talking about her life situation and this is when shit hit the fan for me. She been married 2x, both failed. She was a mistress to this guy and had this other guy basically on a string damn near. She tried to advise the guy that he's not on the level he needs to be with her, but she's not kicking it to him like that. She started talking about men and women as if she had them figured out, but I was just on the mindset that the things that she was talking about was truly subjective and she just tried to make her OPINIONS a fact. When all in all, it's not true. Her response was always, "No it's not, it's because...."

Eventually I passed out and we just went to sleep. The next day, I just wasn't feeling her anymore. I was cool if she didn't text me back anymore, because I didn't like who she was. Even as a friend. I can't be around someone who's like that. So she was into these silver coins or something in the subreddit called silver bugs I think. I wasn't too interested in them, but if she wanted to show me something then I would let her. Why shit on someone's happiness ya know? So she has this thing where she just got all weird about guys and them liking transwomen and whatnot. Honestly, whatever your sexual preferences are, it's your business. As long as you respect mine, I'll respect yours. We have different preferences and can coexist in the same room. But the issue is when you KNOW what my preference is and I stand on that, but you're trying to be disrespectful. Then I gotta comment on that. But if you're cool, then I'm cool.

SHE HAD A PROBLEM WITH THAT! Lol. Going rants about how I don't understand a man who wants a guy who's a guy who's a woman and yada yada yada. Shit was really rearing its ugly head at this point. And I said something along the lines of, "Yeah times have changed and the internet is a bit different now that what you remember it to be." She thought I was trying to the throw shade, telling me I have a comprehension problem and that's gonna be a chasm later on in life and just extra shit that came out of left field. So I defended myself and told her no shade, just was saying how different the internet is now, but do as you please.

She responds and I will, have a good evening sir. So I didn't really care, but the more I processed our interactions, I started to see how fucked up she is as a person. So I typed out this long paragraph about what I thought about her actions and how she handled things. After I sent that message, I just blocked her. Didn't care for what her excuse was or her explanation was for it. Because you can't excuse that kind of behavior. I still have the text too. I'll link it. But out all of that, I've considered taking a break from older women. That one might have done it for me. My homie said that she just wanted to fuck, but I don't think that's worth all the trouble just to fuck. Especially how she had me so heated at her ignorance.

TL:DR 51 Year old miserable woman from Chicago messages me on reddit for conversation. Constantly gaslights and deflects at every subjective conversation. Always had to let me know how much she knew all the time. Jumped to conclusions and assumptions all the time. Had to let her know what kind of person she turned out to be after all these years of "her ways" Message I sent her