l'Il attempt to explain this first part with as minimal detail as possible. I (21M), have previously in the past had a very negative experience with an older woman I met by coincidence, involving violence and abuse in almost every conceivable form. Every, and I stress this part hard.

In the years since, l've found that I am predominantly attracted to older women. I noticed that while I can maintain friendships with women my age or slightly older, whenever I seek out something romantic or intimate, it's with women in the 35-45 age range. I want to emphasize that I am fully aware that not all older women are like the one I encountered; many are very kind, which is partly why I am drawn to them. However, I can't help but wonder if there is an underlying issue affecting my preferences. This has been troubling me for some time now so yeah.

Is this a healthy behavior? Should I seek professional advice?

Note: This is a repost of a post I made an hour ago. I deleted the original because I mistakenly used an account known by a few people I know in real life, instead of a throwaway account. I realized the error only after receiving the first comment notification, which led me to panic and delete both the account and the post. A mod responded to it and I have left a reply to it in the comments section. I apologize if this violates any rules, but I am kind of desperate for this.