After much deliberation, self reflection, and conversations with people close to be I’ve accepted the fact that if I’m to actively pursue/search for a partner it will be a cougar.

I’ve never felt true emotional satisfaction with anyone in and around my age, the conversations don’t seem to flow as much, a simple disagreement never seems to end with a discussion but an argument. This is something that when having personal relations with older ladies I’ve never experienced.

Sexually i see no flaws in age, personally is also a main factor in my sexual attraction (if we enjoy the same things, can talk about topics even on disputing sides, laugh at the same things) so it seems like the right direction for me to go.

HOWEVER, the short lived relationships I’ve had in the past have been with people that aren’t as committed or even comfortable with the dynamic. It’s always seemed like we always have amazing conversations…fall into bed, do the same for a month or two then there commitments don’t align with me being around for anything other then sex. I want to find someone that is open and willing to the conversation I’ve semi expressed above.

I’m not sure what I’m really asking for here, if anything. But if your reading this and anything resonates with you and you think I could use some of your advice please share.

I’m more then open to learning and understanding this more.