im in my childhood bed trying to sleep because i’ve been going to sleep around 5 am recently, and i need to wake up early so i can’t do that. so i put on an older playlist i used to sleep to and suddenly got hit with a high school memory and feelings from that moment even though i talk to none of the people from that memory today. and now im thinking if i’ve ever had a genuine relationship and if ive ever been or ever will be truly happy or if anything is worth it. i texted a few people and no one had answered and it just feels like im always there for people but no one is ever there for me on the rare occasion i decide to open up and reach for help.

tldr being home and having childhood flashbacks is fucking me up

mods pls don’t lock this i couldn’t find the sad insomniac megathread