(24/M) Firstly, let me thank all of you contributing to this community by any means. As a long time lurker who finally breaks the silence, this subreddit helped me a LOT.

After a very long time, I decided not to fight who I am, but rather accept and embrace scat. In the past 5-6 years there were many times trying to supress this part of me.. then failing horribly. There were many experiments such as super light smearing on hand, pooping in my hand and sniffing my poop many times. But it always spiraled back to the s(h)ame cycle when post nut clarity hit like a truck and I kinda denied that I liked doing those. Even though I was very aware of being into this, but still wanted to fight it (if this makes any sense).

It was like that for at least until like a month ago, when I was in a really heated moment and decided to lick my poop. In that horny mindset I was thinking of it like a "point of no return".. and to my not so surprise, I liked it. So I did a mental deepdive to understand myself better and realized I was always drawn towards poop.. which probably got reinforced being exposed to 2g1c during puberty.

I don't wanna lie to myself, and be in constant war anymore. I mean.. it is even a big step I'm opening up to y'all. I'm hopeful I might find a woman in the future who is either equally aroused by the intimacy and dirtiness of it.. or at least open minded enough to accept me for who I am if I tell her. Anyways thanks for reading all the way through.