I (20F) have been into Scat for some years now. It's always been just watching Scat videos, which includes shitting onto the floor or any surface that isn't a toilet with a direct view of the asshole, feeding videos also with a direct view, watching guys jack off with it, panty/pantspoop which is mainly for the sound aspect, and dildo/fucking videos. I absolutely hate smearing. I have never done anything scat related with myself or someone else, me being a germaphobe i've never really been interested in engaging Scat play. But lately i've been having thoughts about having a woman shit on me and/or in my mouth, which is terrifying because even though i'm into it and it turns me on, the germaphobe part of me will absolutely hate it. I don't know if i'm having these thoughts because i really like the woman that i'm fantasizing about or if i'm just getting REALLY into this fetish after all this time.