My fetish is a lot tamer overall. I don’t like making messes anymore, even if I’m home alone and don’t have anybody to worry about. The most I’ll do nowadays is some very light dirty ass-to-mouth. I suspect this is related to my transition, which started 4 months ago. There’s a couple reasons why I think it’s related.

1. Estrogen T-blockers reduce libido.
2. Im trying to pass as female in terms of behavior and appearance. This has led to subconsciously giving into the stereotype that women need to be clean and pristine in every aspect.
3. I don’t want someone to see me as lesser for having this fetish. I used to imagine a guy fucking my ass and enjoying it even if it gets dirty, but now all I can imagine is him getting disgusted at me for not cleaning properly ahead of time and calling me a freak and not talking to me anymore.
4. My scat fetish may have been created by me not transitioning sooner. It’s common for trans people to have worse hygiene before they transition due to not liking their body, and that certainly applies to me. So when I first started anal play, I didn’t really care about cleaning that much and that led to my scat fetish. Now that I’m improving my hygiene, the scat fetish is naturally going away.