This is the longest I’ve gone since 5th grade. I’m 17 now.

Nobody celebrates these things with me. I’ve had 14 attempts, dozens of hospital stays, etc. I was given, objectively, the lowest chance of success with the diagnosis I was given.

Anyways, I’m still struggling a ton. I’m still here out of pure spite and stubbornness. No way I’m going to let those people win.

Things have changed. Recently it’s gotten worse, much worse. But I’m still sober, and clean. I’ve been out of rehab for almost a year. It’s getting better.

I’m hoping to find some motivation soon. Being alone on this milestone is horrible.

Long story short, I need someone to be proud of me.