Hey,

So this all happened within about two months but I have a long history of hiting my head and drug use. About two months I had a self harm episode where I was really upset and I banged my head against a metal pole around 150 times and then did 30 times 4 days later and I didn’t black out or anything but I did have a goose egg for at lest a week.

I did feel not myself for a while - hobbies didn’t seem interesting, didn’t wanna talk to people, stayed in my room. I started losing my stuff for a while and my family said I started talking in circles a lot like circumstantial thoughts 💭

After about a month I went DH biking in Whistler and had a sick day but on my last lap I blanked like anywhere from 20mins to 40mins - I did crash 💥 but I only remember having some water put my helmet back on and continue on then I was at my car with no memory of how I crashed, how I got down the mountain, and how I got to my car. I didn’t really have any concussion symptoms for like 4 days when I noticed I was really hyper, happy, visuals felt brighter, and felt like I was given a second chance at life.

Coming up on two weeks since the blackout I noticed I’m losing things a lot more, having trouble focusing, getting angry more often, not really myself, I wanna quit my job, customers are annoying me, I feel like a bitch a lot of the time.

I’m also feel like I wanna break up with my girlfriend of two years. I just feel very lost in space and confused. I’ve seen my doctor and he’s sending me to a concussion specialist but will take months and he wants me to see a neurologist just in case of something else..

Any advice?