Before the pandemic, I was at menards checking out A/C units and this gentlemen quickly come to my aid. As he was helping me, he said he knows me from the gym we go to. Long story short, he is a closet homosexual guy that cruisies at the gym that we both go to. I didn’t not know this until he told me he was caught cruising seven years ago than they send out a promotion for members to join than that’s when he got his feet back into our facility. I will flat out tell you that I was completely attracted to him and didn’t know he was gay at the time. He would play basketball with the other guys and strip naked in the locker room and engaged with the other members. I think i was attracted to the fact he would strip naked in front of me while we talked about the A/C unit and my work out that I was never had the encourage to do at the time. There were time he had a semi -erection and just walk to the showers without any guilty.

Things turn when he show interest in me by jokingly say “The jets in the hot tub sure get me hard” or I would get discombobulated in the middle of the conversation he would spread his legs to show me his erection underneath his towel. Now I am just uncomfortable at this point because our friendship was pure platonic and now shifted to something sexual. During that time, we would text outside of the gym through facebook. After one incident, he playfully grabbed by junk in the locker room I wasn’t too please and threaten to report him. He unfriend me on Facebook and around that time the gym closed because of the pandemic

Well, Today I ran into him in the locker room after an intense workout. My anxiety flared when he start to stripped naked as he casually talked about his trip. As I fumbled around with my words, as I managed to asked if he usually go to this gym regularly so I know not to come here a lot. He said it various day to day than he went to the steam room where he usually cruisies as I hop in the hot tub. He joins me as he talks about his trip and for that split second, I started to enjoy his company. Like he is that type of friend that you can be naked with as we drink a cold beer as I started to let me guard down. We ended up both going to the showers and he ended up leaving his door open as I closed mine. When I finished my shower, he flash me smile as he shower with the door open. I am not sure if he understand that I will never cruise with him but he is like ideal friend that I want to chill with even naked. I don’t think he understand that I am not going to do anything sexual with him.

Btw..the reason why I mention he is closet homosexual because he only would hang out with me at night and at his place. It never happened but overtime I realized he would only hang out with me for sexual reasons.

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