Being a conservative gets more and more tiring every day. I'm a gay theatre & English major at a small private college in the Northeast (the antithesis of a "stereotypical conservative"), and no one except the very small number of other conservatives I've detected on my campus (my gaydar may need work but I have an exceptional conservative-dar!) knows that I'm a conservative.

Even my very best friends think I'm a liberal-- I'm relatively outspoken to my close friends about my strong dislike of the hard left, but they think I'm a member of the moderate left. It's just super frustrating because my (liberal) close friends see the crazy things that our far-leftist classmates express on social media, and yet they are blind to the indoctrination that occurs daily from our leftist and even liberal professors and administrators.

It's just really frustrating and lonely to think that not even my closest friends know the REAL me. I feel like I am ALWAYS hiding a part of myself from absolutely everyone I know-- I always have to watch what I say, or avoid certain topics of conversation, or even pretend to agree with what people are saying. For the past four years I feel like I can never be my true self, which is an awful feeling to have.

As we progress further and further into the craziness that is going on as the leftist agenda gains more traction by the day, it's becoming harder & harder to hide my opinions. I'm a relatively popular and well-liked guy on my campus (it's a relatively small campus where everyone knows everyone), and I know it would all change if I became more outspoken about my beliefs (on social media for example).

I'm not formally enrolled in a political party because voter registration records can be easily looked up in my state and I'm scared of people seeing that I'm a registered Republican. I'm also scared to change my political views on Bumble & Hinge to "conservative" instead of "moderate" (LOL) because I'm scared that guys that I know from school will see it and then people will find out I'm conservative that way.

Isn't this a crazy way to live? I'm just so tired of it!! Okay rant over LOL.