Both naman by heart may interest and purpose ako sa STEM (engineering and earth science), and HUMSS (public administration and policy). Pero mas nasa puso ko at talents ko talaga ang HUMSS. Ang main career goal ko talaga is maging policy analyst, second is engineering. Bale yung STEM interest ko ginagamit ko lang din siya as a knowledge para sa policy analyst career ko, bale I'm just taking STEM for humanistic purposes, for the objective of cybersecurity, renewable energy and materials, and enviromental solutions, to which I am not sure if I am as interested to pursuing as before. I also wanted to start my own electronics company din noon, pero as years passed by na iba na ang interest ko, 'di ko na feel na bumuo ng company na 'yon.

Also choosing STEM for the immediate salary and migration opportunities, which a HUMSS course barely does. Kaya ang pinlano ko sana is mag STEM ako for my undergrad, then HUMSS for grad. Kaso I really excel in HUMSS eh, it is where my deepest passions and talents belong. Since I'm in a STEM specialization for a long time (by SHS strand, and currently a college frosh), taking general subjects na HUMSS para akong uhaw na uhaw, pakiramdam ko nagkukulang talaga, and those core subjects replenish me a bit. I knew that if I take a HUMSS course my academic performance will excel so much, and I would be happier.

If I choose STEM, I can take HUMSS for my grad naman and my purpose for objectives will be fulfilled (to which again, I am not sure if I am as interested in pursuing). If I choose HUMSS, I would barely do STEM in my grad due to lack of background, and barely achieve my objective of integrating STEM in my policy analysis career, but it is where my utmost talents, skills, and interests are, it would feel fulfilling to choose HUMSS, but I will also deny salary and migration opportunities if I did.

Alam ko na ang haba at ang OA ko, pero I just want to vent it out and ask advice for my very specific situation. Minsan I would think na I would take a risk, and runaway by choosing a HUMSS course against all odds, 'di ko rin alam baka na-te-tempt lang ako mag-HUMSS. Pero taking either them is both a want and a need eh. I'm asking kasi baka may kailangan akong tanungin o i-asses sa sarili ko na 'di ko pa nalalaman, despite contemplating for a long time.