Live in the West. Fire "season". Smoke has been unsufferable last few days. Multiple fires near my city. Am in good health and summer.fires don't usually bot b er me, but ive felt short breathed and loopy.

I Got really really into road biking few years ago. It has helped immeasurably to fight climate Grief, biking into the mountains without having to get into a fossil fueled vehicle... One of the hardest and most beautiful rides I know of, biking distance from my house (less than 100 miles) is near where Ive been working, building a fancy bathroom, with a view of golf course, lake and mountains behind.. been watching anxious as mountains browned early, and rain never came. Last 2 days I've had to watch mountains I love burn while caulking and grouting a bathroom. Leaving my kid alone To do so. There's a sick satisfaction in having the world burn within view of the privileged... but it's a bitter humor, and not a true joy.

I called out tomorrow, got drunk tonight. Life is too short. Watched hilarious movie with my kid. Laughed and cuddled.

I have few days off. Usually that means I'd take kiddo for a lil camping trip to get out of city... but all my usual spots are on fire. How can I feel human in these conditions?