Hey everyone

I started doing blow like maybe a year ago. On and off, during social settings only. I have adhd and where I live the only legal treatments had no effect on me. Because of my adhd I got depressed and honestly, the thing that saved me was going out, doing drugs and raving.

But it got more and more frequent. In the past 2 months I did a 2-day bender almost every weekend, between festivals and clubs being in season, and the techno scene here being very good.

I never felt the need to do blow to be honest. But I never cared about dying, and I earn a very comfortable amount of money so these 2 points were always out of the equation. I just always took it to have fun, meet people, and party. My mindset always was to have fun, I’d rather die young but having a lot of fun than old and bored (I mean I also do a lot of bungee jumping, go parachuting and partake in a various amount of very dangerous sports).

But last weekend it changed. Blow helped me a lot with my mental health, I have fun with it, I found a plug with very pure stuff, developed a whole ritual with it (a glass of macallan 15 while cutting and filling up my onegee snuff box). And today, after a very tired day at work, not only did I want a line, I couldn’t resist taking one.

I know it’s a slippery slope from there. So what can I do ? I don’t intend to stop, but I don’t want to get addicted either.