Honestly, where do I begin? I have been codependent all my life, but the emotionally abusive relationship I left 7 months ago has made it unbearable in the aftermath. How do I accept that being alone is okay? I literally get anxiety to think that I am alone, and I don’t know how long I will be. How do I stop putting my self worth into whether or not I have a partner? I have broken no contact with my ex a few times, just because of these feelings. Why do I feel like I need to have someone with me physically every day? I have friends, and that I am grateful for. But I find the desire daily to rush to find a new partner. I know I cannot do that to myself and I need to heal first. But where do I start? I cannot afford therapy. I can barely afford to live, which doesn’t help. I only feel better when I’m around people. Even if it’s just at work with my coworkers. Sometimes I go out just to avoid being alone at home, but then I am finding it imposible to form healthy habits. Honestly, where do I start?