Going to my friends house for a couple days to give my bf some alone time because he works hard and he deserves some peace but I’m finding myself freaking out about it as the day comes closer. I’m so nervous and the only thing I can think of causing it is that I’m so terrified I’m going to miss him and want to text him and be annoying. I’m terrified of how guilty I’m going to feel when I miss him so much I want to talk to him. He deserves to have this space and I’m so scared I’m too fucked up to give it to him and I didn’t even realize it until now. I don’t want to ruin everything because I can’t just leave him alone for a few days. I have so many other things wrong with me why did I have to become so codependent without noticing I feel sick

EDIT: I spoke with him for reassurance. HE didn’t ask me to not text him I just put that pressure on myself. He let me know it’s always ok to text him and offered to bring me anything I left which made those thoughts of “he wants me gone forever he hates me” go away. Thank you everyone so much for the suggestions!