So a few weeks ago I posted this. At that time I was dealing with:

• The worst episode of depression I've had since starting treatment, being worsen by crushing loneliness.

• The worst anxiety I've had from the stress of not knowing what to do with my future. It was so bad that I finally had to take some of my anxiety medication.

• Isolation that was seeming to grow into social anxiety

• Insomnia that was just making everything worst and completely reversed my sleep cycle.

I was meaning to write this earlier but I'm a pretty lazy guy and recently one of my Civcraft friends have been dealing with things that sound exactly like what I've been dealing with. So I decided to write this to let him, and everyone else dealing with this shit know there is another side.

So pretty much my day consisted of reddit and youtube, I didn't even play any games since the depression had taken all joy out of them. Well, while browsing /r/TumblrInAction I came across this thread of "deaf privilege meets blind privilege" and was very confused as why they were talking about feels when they usually make fun of the feels. Well I decided to download Katawa Shoujo and see what the fuss was about since I did hear about it before on /r/gaming. Well after playing it I guess I had the most common reaction: http://i.imgur.com/TQbxM.jpg.

This sudden melting of my usually cold and dark heart really hit me hard and made me reflect on my life. I realized I was an idiot for isolating myself and cutting off contact from all my friends. I recently wrote up a huge thing on Facebook explaining my situation and apologizing for cutting them off. I'm still lonely since all my friends are in University and I still don't care for talking over Facebook chat but I can deal with it now.

Secondly, I have decided I am going to university which has significantly cut down on my stress, now I just gotta worry about somehow getting the money for it seeing that I'm still unemployed (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻. It worked out too because I have been accepted for computer science (with a $4000 scholarship), which I'm kinda glad because I don't think I could be a part of the business world as an accountant.

Lastly I started to put my small amount of musical talent to use and have picked up playing the keyboard and seem to be doing pretty good so far for only a little bit of practice. I almost feel like picking up the guitar again, but I have decided to just stick with the keyboard for now. I am also starting to enjoy video games again and have started reading since I have always enjoyed that as well (starting with The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy). Oh yeah I almost forgot, I have also developed an addiction for anime.

I was feeling the happiest I have ever been in life for about 2 weeks, with the feeling that the whole world had been lifted off my shoulders and while the great amount of happiness has dissipated, I still feel a lot better than I used to be.

TL;DR: There is another side to mental illness and I want others to know that.